Sleep at late hours, get up at whatever time I like, ignore and forget about the amount of work I gotta clear in these two days.. Ah. If only I can be that ignorant. My weakness is that I care too much, eh? I want to spend my next 24 hours incubating under my blankettttt!

Was on skype with Anger and Jiani while waiting for Jenny's arrival. Took photos and I look like as if I were already dead. Uh, how depressing. HAHA. 

Read another chapter of Fast Food Nation and dozed off for awhile. This is extreme madness, I never fail to fall asleep after reading that book. I wish there's a shortcut. SIGH.

It has been a long while since I waited for anyone.

Back then it was extreme euphoria. There was something to look forward to whenever I turn the laptop on. Every night was filled with anticipation and excitement. Long endless hours of catching up-- it's amazing how we can actually find so many things to talk about. But everything took a U-turn. Now it's nothing but merely cold meaningless chats filled with awkward pauses that seem like eternity. I wonder why everything seemed so great back then. Maybe I was mistaken about my own feelings. Nothing but a string of mistakes. Perhaps this is the side effect- I get bored, I can't be bothered to try to find the silver lining hidden in the clouds anymore. Just let things be like they are, I surrender all to destiny and allow nature to take its course. Too tired to repeat the whole cycle, because I know at the end we get nothing but pain.

I'd rather not taste the sweet, because I don't want to experience the mental torture anymore.

One day it won't hurt anymore, I know. 

But I'm numb, senseless, I can't feel the way I did before. Everything seems so superficial, just paper faces on parade. 

On the stage of life, you are the actor.

6:01 PM Tjung!